Let Down.....and a let down

Why the interesting title? Because in booby news I can definitely begin to feel what reminds me of let down.  Thinking of massage or the wonderful thought of a warm mouth on my nipple makes that rush of feeling to my breasts that is unmistakably let down.  I love the feeling.  My breasts feel full and the pressure is there to express, now all I have to do is get that to happen!  This is like being at the last curve before the finish line.  You can see it off in the distance but you just can't touch it yet.

The other let down is that I really wish I could have those warm lips on my nipples.. there is nothing I desire more.  Someday I know it will happen, just a bit impatient I guess.

The Dampness Continues

Hello again, things in life are progressing onward, those who know me personally know my struggles but I have learned something wonderful about manual massage.  It is the most relaxing thing in the world.  I find myself in another place when I massage.  My hands rhythmically moving on my breast following the Marmet technique. Pushing back and feeling the mammary glands, much harder and larger than they were a few weeks ago, feel my nipple harden in my hand as my fingers move through the rest of the movements.  My breathing relaxes and if it is possible to put myself in another place while massaging that certainly happens.  Even if I wasn't doing this to get milk, I think I would keep going.  That relaxingly comfortable place is wonderful to go to.

On the booby news, yes massage is going well.  I continue to feel changes in my very full, very heavy breasts.  Also, the dampness continues.  I just wish I could catch in on film.  Any photographers out there???  I have also recently started drinking Mother's Milk Tea.  I have to be very careful with how much I drink, but I thought it might help.  I continue to be on watch for a good hospital grade pump.  It may be time to get one now.

Until next time, warm milky thoughts....

Dampness?? What does this mean?

First of all, thanks to everyone for the kind thoughts at the passing of my friend.  It is nice to know I have so many good friends out there who care.

Now, on to the question of the hour.  What does this damp feeling mean? As I am doing manual massage, the ends of my nipples feel "damp" to me.  However, I can not see any real fluid being expressed.  Could this be a good sign? I would love to hear everyone's thoughts,so let me know!

I know I have had requests for videos.  I have meant to make a few and will try and get them done soon.  Until then, milky thoughts to all!

Yes, I know..I know

Those of you close to me know that I have been really sick with some nasty virus that decided it was time to invade.  Luckily, I am doing much better and can almost laugh without coughing now.  The good news is thank goodness.  Being sick in 90 degree heat is never fun.  The bad news is that at its worst this cold knocked me off my schedule.  Sleep was the necessary evil.  For about 5 days now, I have been getting back into my every three hour routine and I tell you, I can't even explain how much my breasts missed the massage.  When I started back in ernest I thought for sure they were going to explode they felt so full and even a bit painful.  Now, after a week my nipples are back to their new pouty selves and every 3 hours I am getting that tingly feeling that tells me it's time to massage.  The last few days I swear I could feel moisture when I was done, but nothing milky or in quantity.  Could that be the beginning??  I hope so.  Anyone out there with knowledge who can advise me, please let me know!

In other fun booby news, I am now officially one cup size larger.  I have strattled the line for awhile but I tried out some of my bras yesterday (if you know my love of lingere, that's a lot of bras!) and most of them were overflowing.  So, I need to start shopping in earnest.  My other shopping quest this week is to start looking for a very good pump.  I want a double pump and not a manual one.  Again, any advice there will be most appreciated.

I am planning to take a few pics to show you changes.  Will keep you posted!  Happy Sucking!

Where have I been???

I know, I know I have been missing in action.  It has been a crazy few weeks with an unexpected trip and a cold that made my head feel like it was going to explode.  I even had to give up my middle of the night massage just so I could get the rest I needed.  I am happy to report that I am starting to feel better the last few days and my life should settle down a bit now.

As far as updates go, I don't think I backed up much because I tried to keep to my schedule as much as possible while I was sick.  I haven't gotten drops yet, but my breasts feel very heavy and tingle all the time now when its close to massage time.  My areolas are very dark and wider too.  I have been reading a bit more, and have learned it can take a few months without a partner so I shall just keep going.  I love the changes my body has made already.  I can't wait til the day when I see evidence of all my hard work.

I will be adding links over the next few days to some good sites I have found on line.  If anyone has any suggestions please let me know.

OUCH

Maybe I need to say that a few more times today.. ouch, ouch, ouch.  My left breast is sooo sore. I wish I had some pampering.  I am backing off a little on the massage schedule just because it hurts and I will keep an eye on things for any developments that might not be so good.

I have been doing more research, and have found out so much more about techniques and the right way to do things when massaging as the main way to induce.  I have altered the schedule from 15 minutes per side straight, to 5 minutes at a time for a total of 15 minutes.  Switching back and forth is supposed to actually be more stimulating to a woman's brain chemistry, and that is the most important thing.  I want my brain to think it has a need to produce. 

On the results news front, I had to get new bras this weekend.  Yippeee!! The cups on the ones I was wearing no longer contained my breasts as well as they had in the past.  If that isn't a wonderful sign of progress, I don't know what is!

Changes...the more things change the more they stay the same

It's been a crazy few days with the holiday just past.  I had to figure out how to get my massage schedule to fit with bbqs and thunderstorms, sleeping late and a twisted wrist.  But, what I figured out was that its life, and since I dedicated to this journey I need to mesh the two together.  Hopefully, I am working towards both.

As far as developments go, the big change is that my nipples and areolas are really pouty.  It reminds me of the ways my breasts changed when I first was pregnant. I have also noticed considerably darkening of my areolas as well.  Also, my nipples are much more sensitive now.  I feel them respond much more readily to the material of my clothing and the air. Maybe I am just more tuned into my body, but either way, I like the awareness it brings.